What does it look like when you say no to yourself in order to say yes to others? What does it cost you? What does it end up costing them in the end? Now, what becomes possible when you give yourself permission to feel your feelings, scream into pillows, and take space to resolve, redirect and re-plan? EVERYTHING!

This is what that turning point (in real time) looks like for me.

“I don’t know what I’m doing!” is the line I’ve said more times than I can count these past few weeks. Just moving from one task to the next afraid to slow down or stop because then I will need to answer the question of “what’s next?” This post isn’t about achieving goals…it’s about what happens in that fearful space between achieving goals and setting new ones.

This blog should really be titled “At the risk of sounding ungrateful” because that’s how it feels to write it. This move has been all about but mixed emotions. Over the past 10 days since being in LA, the chemistry of all the mixtures seems to have led to a combustion of sorts. It doesn’t make me proud to say that I’ve spent the last 10 days consumed with the negative emotions, but it’s the reality of this part in my journey. Here’s why….

Taking a break from my move to LA to provide you with an insider look into my Coaching journey, which has been running in parallel. It pains me to reveal what happened behind the curtains of my first ever Coaching session (the client will learn about this at the same time as all of you) but I can’t help but think it’s an important one for any aspiring entrepreneur sitting on an idea or opportunity because they don’t feel ready or worthy. So, ready or not, here we go…

So we’ve finally arrived in California, but everyone is curious: “how did the move go?” We had it planned perfectly. Asked so many clarifying questions and even refused to believe that things could be so “in control.” What’s that saying about God laughing when you make a plan? Well HA HA I guess! Packing up our lives in Toronto to move to California. This is how moving day went.

Pandemic. Less interaction with friends. Virtual school. New school. No extra-curricular activities. Mom and dad are home when they are home…but always unavailable. Long stretches without seeing family, or even leaving the house. So what happens when you take all of this and add a life changing move across the country?

When I first started at my company 11 years ago, I told my husband I would only be there for 18 months tops. I knew that this was just something temporary until I found something that I would really love. But how do you walk away when they promote you every 12 months? Especially when you feel beholden to them because people who look like you don’t get these chances? This is how…

Yes I stole this line straight from Frozen 2, but I think about it ALWAYS. Especially when I become overwhelmed and intimidated by a goal that seems so large, and unachievable. This is the line that forces me to stop spinning in my anxiety and to take action toward my goal knowing I will just continue to figure it out as I go along. This post is about action.

(and not question why you don’t live every day of your life there)

This decision wasn’t made in a single moment, but over a series of happenings and milestones. Being in LA with my sister and her family was the first “happening” that caused something inside me to take hold.

As some of you may now be aware, my family and I are in the process of relocating from Toronto, Canada to California. Before I get into future posts about how that’s going, let me get you oriented on how we got here.